Too many voices and yet not a one….

not one saying what they actually should say

maybe they don’t know.

they act like they know it all.

Most times I believe they know exactly what they should say.

but they secretly don’t want to,

they don’t want to share.

To share words that could bring life.

They hoard them to themselves.

It might make me hate them or even worse, to them, it might put a chink in their armor.

And if they do know deep down what to say, maybe they’re just afraid to.

Could it be true ignorance

or is it just a fascade to protect themselves.

Too afraid dig down and scrape out whatever they have to give to someone

to help them keep going, even just one more step, even sometimes to remind them to just keep breathing.

Does anyone else feel His presence in these moments? All that He has taught us,

begging to be used.

Yes, momentarily sometimes, it’s uncomfortable or scary or feels unnatural to say what it is that you know they need.

we question it.

it couldn’t really help them right?

is it worth the risk?

In these moments do we really possess the words that are true and life-giving

We do…

And the times when we do is often easier when we decide or just feel that their healing is more important than ours.

It happens more often when we care more about that person than ourself.

then the fullness that we are soaked in that we don’t even realize is overflowing inside us and weighing us down is suddenly released..

wrung out

given

and we feel peace again.

strength again.

Maybe then WE ourselves are able to

receive more

accept more

we even feel joy, and all is well once again.

How can we say we love God if we walk this earth so self protectively.

What is even the point of existing if not to give of yourself -Or is this just the thoughts of a fool.

People are reflections of God

His display pieces.

We need to see him in a variety of forms and ways

through all of us perfectly broken people.

How will we ever see Him when we are so isolated and self protective, stingy or complaining, fake..

Can we really rely on our constant ever present daily strivings to self protect? The ways we devise secret plans to control or keep others away at all costs sometimes.

Obsessively creating scenarios to find what we think is peace.

And when those plans succeed, if we’re truthful…

do we feel…

better,

do we feel…

peaceful

do we feel….

alive

For a while I can always fool myself but I’ve learned and am still learning I don’t feel any of those things those good things when I am isolated and self absorbed.

I wonder, is it because God intends for his people to see Him through living, ever changing (vessels) canisters

The only things that hold His love, His beauty, all His attributes .

When we share ourselves with the world, the living world and are open to receive from it..

we change.

are forever changed.

creation

all creation,

man and women,

all living things …

these are His canisters.

The only things that can hold His gifts.

speak to us about him.

The only things that can carry a secret of Him and pass it to us

Given or received only to ourselves through His beauty in creation or one person to another or at other times to many.

open your canister, no, dont just open it, throw away the lid.

Let people dig in and see what kind of specific, sweet, one of a kind things He has made you out of.

Taste and let them take a taste.

This is where friendships and love and growth are

Created

Found

Returned to

This is where we see God most

where we taste of others

and are filled-

filled sometimes by simply being out in His beautiful creation alone

In awe of His world

Gathering it all in,

weather,

nature,

sounds,

words,

art,

music…

Gifts from Him for our enjoyment,

our filling.

And then we’re filled.

Filled with a huge variety that makes us more vibrant and unique

and no longer unable to see Him,

and to see Him more vividly

To glorify God and enjoy Him forever.

That’s our purpose

We glorify….

by giving,

sacrificing ourselves,

we enjoy…

by filling ourselves with all His gifts

His love is then too evident to deny

Shouldn’t we be fervently trying to fill and then also give away all we hold and knowing that AS we do,

we are ensuring our own fullness

…to the ultimate end of

knowing Him more.

Always unfinished.