Stirring up past places that contained more than we were cognizant of.

Swelling our heart, automatically causing our head to lift upward with an unforced smile bursting forth, propelling hope into our present moment.

At the same time, laying open our heart, like a throbbing wound, exposed, willing to be assaulted, allowing the pain, to once again, penetrate deeply to the nerve endings, rarely, if ever, sometimes often, ignited.

I say to you, memories, “I will do every thing possible to deflect you and yet I’d die a thousand deaths if you actually left me.”

And then I breathe.

And I find thankfulness.

I find and focus on all the joys and experiences I would of never had. The person I wouldn’t be now, without you.

While I’ll likely never reconcile my relationship with you; you will always be welcome. In fact, I know I’m better when you invade my life, even if I profess differently.

May you never leave and may I always see you, as not only a welcomed friend, but also a teacher, healer and champion; one of expectation, humility and strength.

May I not only gain hope (a feeling) and trust (more difficult) but most importantly, may I also gain growth (an action) from your beautiful intruding mess in my life.

#forallmylifeyouhavebeenfaithful